No motivation to blog so I won't force myself to do it?

Tsk Tsk.. Think I will start writing on a personal diary instead.

Back to ICT

Today is my second day of ICT.

Heng ar! The work is easy and the best part is that we are able to go back home on time (or a lil earlier)! Every single damn NSF in my unit has changed and it's good that no one recognizes me. It's a good time going back to reminisce all the good old times, lest the presence of uncle tan. 

Another thing, I think I've lost my 11B and I'm going to make a replacement. Damn it. I'm such a  scatterbrain. 

I'm Back, PEEPS!

Hey readers! It has been such a long time that my blog was updated because I was involved in many events during the past few weeks. Don't go, people. I promise I'll not be neglecting my blog anymore. I will be here regularly, as much as possible. I promise.

MH370  
I'm sure that the missing jetliner, MH370 has been the main focus in the news as of recent. As the search has entered its fourth week, the families are losing their hope on Malaysia to locate their loved ones.

For the past four weeks, there are no signs of any wreckages belonging to the plane despite the efforts which have been painstakingly put into the search. God knows where it has gone to and I'm hoping that the authorities are able to locate the plane and its members soonest.

NEW JOB - MBS
Thanks to my mom actually, who asked her resourceful sister on my behalf for a job over the phone. Apparently, I'm working as a casual labor under Evergreen, a recruitment centre belongs to Marina Bay Sands.

It's enjoyable because I have the flexibility of choosing my preferred day and time and the nest thing of all, I'll get paid on the next day. Well, the bad thing about working as a CL is that it is inconsistent. How does it say? For example, my job on last wednesday due to 'sharp changes' of schedule by my present company.

RETURNING BACK TO SCHOOL
Ask me if I regret quitting polytechnic and my answer will be 'kinda'.
Recently, dad is pressing me to go back to school because he thinks that I'm wasting time at home and that I'm not young anymore. I told him that I had already turned down the offer by the school and he wants me to appeal for it..

My thoughts? I feel quite useless at the thought of my current education level. People my age have already completed their uni studies while I'm still at NOTHING. In this modern world, especially in Singapore, I am NOTHING without a decent diploma or degree certification. Without these papers, there is no way I can get a job that pays a decent amount.

I'll probably get back to school in October.. Or maybe next year.. because I have something else up on my sleeve - that is - which I will derive more below. [So do check it out]

MUNDANE LIFE
Yes.  If my life is made a movie, I can guarantee zero sales across the whole world. Yes, it is that boring. I always link a hobby to a wholesome social life. It's pretty obvious where the famous proverbial birds of the same feather flock together came about.

HENCE, I'm going to make my life a little more interesting by adopting an expensive hobby - joining a singing school. My aim is to complete the syllabus and get into LASELLE (arts school). Looking forward to the trial lesson next friday. Woots!

Argh! Might Stop School For A Year

I am on the brink of heart attack now! It is devastating to know that I will not be enrolled into any institution to further my studies anytime soon. Regrettably, I had flittered precious time away doing ABSOLUTELY nothing during the past decade. At 25, I have nothing with me - no savings, no education and no support.

Come April, I will be back to camp for ICT ! In the midst of completing my ICT, I will be seeking employment in F&B outlets to regain my financial power and to save up as much as possible. In the mean time, I will not think too much and focus on my fitness.

MY PLAN for this year is to earn as much as possible and then try to apply for a diploma course (engineering course) in SIM by October 2014 or April 2015.

If the application for SIM in October 2014 is not successful, I will consider applying for polytechnic courses (engineering schools in all FIVE polytechnics). Upon graduation, I will be turning 29 year-old. Boo-hoo for me! By 2018, I will have no clue if the employability of an old man like me still valid)

At the same time, I will ask for advices from my experienced relatives as to what I can do now. I may not know what the future may hold, but all I know is that I will never give up pursuing my studies.

Weekly Reflection Mar 2014 Week 1

The old adage that time passes fast while our lives are busy has come into play. Many things happened at the same time, and here I am, pushing myself to keep up with the transition of working life to taking-a-breather home-staying retreat.

I had already signed my clearance with Pan Pacific last Monday, alongside with biding adieu to my Vietnamese friends at the airport. Among all these good-byes, I was involved in a ride with the emotional roller-coaster after squabbling with my good friend from City College.

LEAVING PAN PACIFIC
Pan Pacific has taught me a number of things, one of which has fondly reminded of my pure friendship with the foreigners, especially with the vietnamese acquaintances I have met there. In my previous posts, I mentioned about Chinh, an intern, whom I have met while serving my duties with the housekeeping department. Our friendship is sealed after the four-day trip around Singapore. There are also other indispensable experiences where I have managed to pick up the hard truth of the working life. In fact, I learn more about the responsibilities as an important role of co-ordinating housekeeping jobs, safekeeping guests' items and handling rooms keeps with prudence. In the view of all these, I have also understood the perils of not paying heed to my unscrupulous colleagues and falling to their traps ..

IMPENDING CASE
Remember that alleged theft case I told about in my post a few weeks ago? It has not been settled. Adeline, a HR associate, reminded me that the case is still under investigation and that she will do her best to follow up with the issue. Adeline added that she will keep me updated on the progress and hopefully that this issue will fizzle out as soon as possible.

When I questioned her about the worst possible consequences, Adeline had quoted a company policy that the most possible penalty would be deducting 25% of my salary. Of course, if my department would show a little sympathy based on the meagre salary I earn, they might consider shedding some mercy and not pursuing me for any compensation. However, the little man in me is screaming in terror, that the company might seek full compensation of the watch. *touch wood*

Well, Adeline did not answer my calls; and as a matter of fact, I felt that something was amiss and something disastrous was looming large. What could have happened? It had been three days but no new was received on my side. I needed to do something.

As a result, last thursday, I summoned my courage and messaged my Head of Department, Lim, via Whatapps to press her for the latest progress. What this lady replied has made me understand one thing: that is, to relax and not to overthink. Things won't change until the results are out. Here's how the full
 conversation went:

Ryan: His, Ms Lim. How's the case now?
Lim: The hotel has already fully compensated the guest full amount. We will review our case in the next management meeting which is next week.
Lim: Relax! Don't worry so much!
Lim: Just that many of us especially the operational managers are helping to ransack and search for the watch.
Ryan: Thanks, Ms Lim! I hope things will be okay.
Lim: What are your future plans
Ryan: I'm planning to pursue my studies in MDIS. I aspire to be a travel journalist, where I will be able to share my views on different parts of the world with our people and at the same time to indulge my wanderlust!
Lim: To have aim or inspiration is good. Something to inspire you to move forward
Lim: Good luck and best wishes.

Is that a good omen? Maybe things ain't that bad.

FRIENDSHIP WITH CHINH
Earlier this week, I was hoping to pay Chinh a visit later this year. However, I have decided to give up that idea after what seems like a big change after we went on our separate ways. This friend seems a little off after he returned back to his country. He rarely goes online, and sometimes he does not reply my messages on Facebook. It seems like he has been so caught up with his life to the point he forgets to acknowledge my presence.. I am too sad for words.

It is obviously a fact now that my friendship with Chinh will  not be as good as before. I feel that Long-distance friendship hardly last.

Day 4 - Sending My Best Friend Off

It was such an emotional day. I woke up early in the morning and picked Chinh up from Eunos MRT Station.. Time fled really fast!! He's leaving !!!!! While we were on the train, he passed me a shirt he brought from Vietnam. Well, I have no clue why he passed me a shirt but I am sure that it will serve a significant amount of sentimental value since he is my best vietnamese friend. The rest of journey, we were both silent and emotional.  

We met the other girls at Changi Airport and took some photos. It might be the last time I meet them already; maybe, but I will do the best of my ability to visit them biannually or even annually when possibly can. After-all, they have been great friends when we were all working with Pan Pacific. It is saddening to know that we are all living from different countries. It will not be easy to meet up as frequent as possible.. But it is okay - we will still meet whenever possible.

Winnie, Chibi, Hana

Chinh and Winnie

Me and Chinh

Winnie, me and Chinh

Chibi and Chinh

My best friend and me!

Farewell, my friends! All the best in life! 

I hugged my best friend very tight before he went off ~
 I will certainly visit Vietnam one day - to visit all my good friends there!
Friends, we will meet one day!

Updated on 26/2/14
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Day 3 With Best Friend

My best vietnamese friend and I finally were able to spend some time alone without anyone tagging along!  Our plans were formerly - taking a swim at Infinity Pool and then visiting Gardens by the Bay.

All our our plans were destroyed because of my bad sense of direction. In the end, we took two hours walking and traveling on bus! I was so embarrassed and apologetic and that I kept repeating that I was sorry. However, Chinh told me that I did not have to apologize because we are friends.

Throughout the journey, we both felt a little emotional. I know we would miss one another when we both separated.

Hence, Chinh suggested that we should find a place and swim. On my mind I was thinking that we could actually head to e!hub there for a relaxing swim!!

It was a good day. Even we did not visit the places we wanted, but I believe I have done my best to squeeze in as many places as I could within the past three days! When we bade goodbye at the bus, my tears started to flow incessantly. BRO, YOU WILL BE GREATLY MISSED!

Updated on 26/2/14

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Day 2 With Best Friend at Night Safari

We planned to meet again - as Chinh would be departing Singapore in the next few days. In fact, I had regaled him with the magical stories of nocturnal animals in Night Safari the day before. 

So, what's so magical about these animals? I have no idea either. 

Back to topic. Earlier in the day, I sat for an amplitude in Temasek Polytechnic and an interview since design course was my first choice in TP. The test was an assessment of my creativity and suitability in that course. So, what happened next? 

I think I have screwed it. Big time. In all honesty, who cares? It does not affect me if I were not to be chosen. Tôi không thích khóa học. Tôi không thực sự quan tâm. One of the interviewers was absolutely right that I attended the course test and interview for the sake of getting a place in TP.

All I wanted to do during that point of time was to meet my good friend as soon as possble!! It was all my fault. I should not have arranged the wrong time with him. He did not deserve to wait for an hour because of my bad sense of time! *Sorry* So glad that Chinh was very generous and forgiving as he told me that he would be waiting for me and that I did not have to fret. 

Look, any Singaporean would have been fuming mad if they were to be made waiting for an hour. Even I will get mad at people who do that to me! C'mon, it is human nature to get angry, right? Come to think of it, we all make mistakes and we deserve to be forgiven because we are not saints. I am not trying to tell how glamorous being tardy is; as all I wish I could do is to say how this vietnamese friend had warmed my heart. 

Anyway, Chinh tagged a friend called Sunny along with him (whom I thought he looked somewhat familiar) and we became friends! It is probably one of the most embarrassing experiences to get lost in Singapore, especially when I had two foreign friends with me! I did not know where and how to get to Night Safari! 

Sunny said that an SMRT staff told him that he could hitch a bus from Ang Mo Kio Station. Seriously?Well, whoever advised him that bus trip is ridiculous! Just imagine the ridiculous amount of time which he would spend on that bus ride! The journey would take at least two hours if you stay faraway from Ang Mo Kio! C'mon, this is so ridiculous! 

 In actuality, my sense of direction is atrocious, too. I do not have the god-damn rights to criticize anyone, right? At first, I thought we could take the bus at Boon Lay and then transferred to a bus from the bus interchange. Boy, was I wrong. In the end, we took a bus from Choa Chu Kang instead as I was advised by the staff in SMRT .  Embarrassing much. The two friends were already fatigue from the long wait at the MRT station; and now I delayed it even longer. So helpless when I saw how tired they were.  I turned and gave them an embarrassing smile and assured them we would be reaching Night Safari soon.

Phew. Luckily, they were fine.. At least they did not grumble in front of me.. Still, embarrassing much !!*__*  I swear that an adequate homework must be done before I could even volunteer to tour my foreign friends around Singapore. Their smiles were fading by the time when we reached the bus interchange at Choa Chu kang.  

Well, they did not seem excited when they reached the destination as it was obviously the bus ride which caused them such tiredness. Anyway I purchased their tickets to atone for my mistakes. Chinh was like,  I have to pay you back for the mistake.. And of course, I turned him down and told him that it was okay because he is my friend.. 

The trip to Night Safari would be meaningless without a ride on the 45 minute guided tram tour! Well, the tickets were exorbitant, but they worth it as long as the journey on the tram could put a smile on their faces.

During the journey, Chinh held on to my camera and captured whatever animals he could see.. There, we found the tigers, the lions, the buffalos, the tapirs, the antelopes, the deers etc. Pardon, I am not a zoologist and I have no clue what their real names are.. Anyway, it was such an exciting ride and all of us had fun.

The rest of the night, we journeyed through the specially-lit streets and did some window shopping there. Honestly, there's nothing much at Night Safari besides the rides and the walking trail. If you have decided to visit Night Safari, you must take a ride on the tram! During some parts of the journey, do get down and explore the walking trails in there!! Well, we did not get to go down because Sunny preferred to sit through the whole tram journey!

We found this interesting animal-head floor mat!

Hahaha! That makes my day. 

I swear that this super creative.. Maybe I could buy if for japanese friend!

A real-life looking crocodile found in the middle of the road. Beware, the creature is gonna bite your head off!

Do I look like a crocodile hunter??

Before we headed back home, we took some photos to fill the night up before we separated our ways!!

Sunny and Chinh

Chinh and me!

Sunny, Chinh and me!

Updated on 16/2/14 at 1413

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Day 1 With Best Friend At Sentosa

The past few days were spent with my vietnamese best friend, Chinh, as he would be departing Singapore within a matter of days. These four days were very emotional, especially last night. 

When he leaves, I will miss his presence a lot. I will miss the fun days we had back in Pan Pacific. I will miss everything about us. Even though I did not remind Chinh consistently how much he will be missed like this good friend did, I am sure this sentimental friend could feel it because he caught me falling tears when we were on the train the day before.

When we bade adieu yesterday, my tears flowed uncontrollably down my cheeks like a flood. WHY DOES HE HAVE TO LEAVE SO SOON! It breaks my heart when I know that it will not be anytime soon that we will meet again. On the other hand, I feel happy for him as he would be seeing his family and friends again..

On the first day (20/2/2014), we visited sentosa. In fact I wanted to spend some time alone with Chinh because it would be more personal and precious. Well, please do not get me wrong. I will not dismiss any friends of his off, as long as Chinh felt it was okay. 

Chinh's face lit up when he spotted a big earth-looking ball spinning in the middle of the crowd. 

Well, Rainny cooled her heels in a corner and used her phone. Chinh, on the other hand, was away exploring the sunny island. 

Updated on 26/2/14 at 1412

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My Fuck-up Life

If you are reading this, you are probably following me.

 I just want to say thank you 

and I love you.

I am so hurt. It causes so much pain when I know that I have ruined every single close human relationship with people. As of now, seeing all the familiar faces around on the social media are hurting me so bad. Apparently, I hate to admit that most of my true friends have exited my life already.

I feel like running away. Just suddenly leaving. No notes. No warning. Just getting my shit and leaving. I will then abandon all my current social contacts, start afresh and meet new people.

However, it is impossible.
I cannot do that.
No matter what!

Maybe I should stop using Facebook as a whole?
What do you think?